The Price I’m Paying for My Freedom

Me hiking in Malana

I think many people read my travel blog and assume I’m living a glamorous life traveling the world. It’s true, I’m traveling the world, but it’s far from glamorous. Other people think I’m having a mid-life crisis or am being selfish. The fact is, I’ve made a very calculated decision to make some serious life changes. I’ve always wanted to be a writer and I’ve always wanted to travel, and I’m blessed to be doing what I love. But I’ve had to give up many things I like so that I can do things that I love. I’m paying a heavy price for my freedom and here are just a few of the sacrifices I’m making.

The view from the top of the fort in Jaipur, India

Relationships

It’s hard to have a romantic relationship of any sort when you’re traveling constantly. I left someone I love behind in India and I’m avoiding dating now until I have a more stable lifestyle. I’m missing out on seeing friends and spending time with my family. I had to say goodbye to my most loyal companion, my dog Ozzie, who is now being cared for by some dear friends.

Me and Kirti in Rishikesh

 

Comfort

Since I am basically living off of savings until my new career is more lucrative, I travel cheap. Mostly I stay in hostels, Airbnb, couch surf, or even camp. I am constantly packing, unpacking and repacking. I spend long hours in lines at airports. My ankles swell, my feet hurt and it can be extremely tiring.

No nest

I’m in the process of renting out my home to a nice family. That means I’m busting my ass to clear my house for the new tenants. I’m sorting, stacking, selling, and giving things away like a mad woman. My beach home is also rented out. So, for the first time in my adult life, I’m basically homeless. It’s a very strange feeling. I don’t have a bed, kitchen or a closet full of clothes. What I do have is a ton of great new memories and plethora of exciting adventures.

Chandra Tall Lake in the Himalya Mountains

Money

I made the difficult decision to leave a job that paid me over $100k a year so that I can work on my new career as a writer. I felt chained to my desk and controlled by corporate greed. Now I’m following my heart and pursuing my once forgotten dreams. Will it pay off? Nobody knows. But I’m determined to do my best. I believe in myself. I hope others will believe me in too.

The one thing I haven’t given up is my health. I feel healthier than I ever have in my life. I am still doing yoga on a regular basis and I’m still meditating. Every day I read positive things and listen to something motivational. I’m learning and growing. I’ve realized that material things really don’t matter.  All the stuff I spent decades accumulating is just weighing me down. What is really important to me now is enjoying the present moment, connecting with other human beings and experiencing our beautiful planet.

 

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  • Inspiring, it's a great feeling to be able to let go of material possessions. Best of luck!